Reluctantly Vegan

Peeps, I know nobody said it was easy, but being vegan is really tough for me. It frustrates me because my boyfriend breezed through those 30 days, and here I am not even two weeks into it and already struggling. This morning, as I grabbed my vegan spreads from the refrigerator, there was my boyfriend’s mom’s smoked salmon right next to it… and goat cheese. COME ON.

If I didn’t have that stuff in my refrigerator, would life be easier? (Well probably, because it’d mean I’d have a place of my own.) I don’t know, really, I think the cravings would still be there.

Also, for three consecutive nights now, I had nightmares in which I was either at school (?!), out in the city, or at an assessment center (!!) trying to find some vegan food and failing, and just being so hungry and stressed. It really was no fun at all, and today I woke up frustrated and annoyed. Then the salmon and goat cheese temptation happened, and at breakfast I said to my boyfriend, “I don’t think I wanna be a vegan.”

“You don’t have to”, he said. “If you want, you can have some of that cheese.”

“No, I can’t. I promised I’d do this for 30 days. If you can do it, I can do it.”

“Okay then.”

“But… but I want cheese.”

“Well, maybe you’re just one of those people who can’t say no to those evil foods”, he said, knowing full well that hitting my conscience is pretty much the only thing even more effective than hitting my pride.

“Cheese is not an evil food”, I mumbled, but without great conviction. I know cheese production isn’t all sunshine and rainbows for cows, even though it’s not necessary to kill them in order to get the cheese (actually that would be kind of counterproductive, with the exception of rennet production, but that’s so gross I don’t even want to get into it).

Spoiler alert: I didn’t cheat. I ate my vegan breakfast and later my vegan lunch (which was actually delicious). Yet the cheese cravings didn’t go away, so I told myself I should maybe figure out where to get non-evil cheese from. And I did some research on milk production and dairy cows.

Another spoiler alert: Don’t do that unless you’re prepared to feel more than a little sick. I really had no idea about a lot of this, and I’m starting to think it may be easier to find meat from (formerly) happy animals than milk from happy cows. Really. Wow.

My cheese craving is not fully gone, but it’s definitely less than it was this morning. I realise there’s much I don’t know, and most of it I don’t know because in the past, I often chose not to be informed. I chose not to watch Food, Inc. or Earthlings, or any other documentary dealing with where we get our food from and what processes are involved. Why? Because I figured once I knew, it’d be tough to eat meat without a bad conscience.

Well, damn it, maybe that’s exactly what needs to happen. Because the more I realise how little I know about where my food comes from, the guiltier I feel. I can be informed, but I often choose not to, because it’s just way more convenient that way. Wouldn’t it be nice if I had no idea what I was eating? I mean not just in terms of animal cruelty, but also food additives and things like that. Wouldn’t it be nice if I went through life never wasting a thought on that? Too bad I started thinking about it… and I’m beginning to feel like there is no way back from that. So at least for the next two and a half weeks that are left of the challenge I’ll be, however reluctantly, vegan.

After that, who knows? I really cannot picture myself as a vegan full-time. I also really cannot see myself going back to never thinking about where my meat or my dairy comes from. My aunt has a few chickens and occasionally brings by a carton of eggs. I know those are happy animals, but does that mean that those eggs will be the only animal product I can eat? What am I going to do about my conscience? What about the fact that (damn it) I love the taste of cheese but I now know a whole lot about the dairy industry that makes me sick to my stomach if I think about it?

At this point, I’ve no idea what’s going to happen after day 30. I’m not an animal rights activist, I don’t believe all animals are smarter than us and I really just don’t see myself as one of those people that try to make others feel bad about what they’re eating. I just wanna be normal. But how can being normal entail shutting yourself off from a lot of really bad truths?

Any thoughts are much appreciated, of course – from vegans, vegetarians, pescetarians and omnivores alike 🙂


The Vegan Experiment

In December, my boyfriend randomly said, “You know, next year I’ll eat only vegan food for 30 days.”

I must have just stared at him blankly. “Why?”

“I dunno. ‘Cause I can. I just think it’d be interesting.”

“Well… uh… have fun with that?”

I just couldn’t see it. I couldn’t see how one could possibly be vegan and happy at the same time. And yet he did it for 30 days, and that impressed me so much that I decided to follow suit. I’m on day 5 and I’m fine. Well, I mean, my friends just ordered pizza and of course there’s no vegan pizza at the takeout, so I’ll be sitting here with my hummus and crackers and stare longingly at their cheesy pepperoni pizza slices… but apart from that, I’m totally fine.

So why am I doing it?

Curiosity. Sheer curiosity. My boyfriend loves a good steak or pizza as much as the next man. And yet, on day 31, when he had his first slice of cheese, he pulled a face and said it wasn’t as great as he remembered – and proceeded to steal bites of my tofu scramble. The next day, he drank one sip of coke zero and said he was certain it must have gone bad. It tasted like it always did, but cooking and eating vegan means he barely ate any artificial flavours or flavour enhancers for a month – somehow that seems to have shifted his taste. He hasn’t tried steak yet because he’s worried he won’t like it anymore. And he still experiments with tofu, almond butter and amaranth. I want to know how that could happen. I want to see what happens if I do it for 30 days.

But what about meat?

Well, I’ve never really been much of a meat eater. I went vegetarian once and stayed that way for two years. Well, pescetarian – I was convinced I couldn’t live without fish. Apart from bacon and, occasionally, meatballs, I didn’t miss anything. I don’t even really know why I started eating meat again – I guess I became bored. It was also a period where I worked out a lot and that made me start craving red meat. Maybe a protein thing? But really – I’m the pickiest meat eater ever. I can’t handle bones in my meat, or fatty bits, or anything that is not the tenderest of tender filets. Even before this, I often went for the tofu option in asian restaurants. So meat’s not the issue.

Okay, what about eggs?

Eggs, okay. I love me some breakfast scrambled eggs. And no, we haven’t managed to make tofu taste exactly like scrambled egg, and I don’t think it’ll happen either. But the thing is that breakfast eggs are easy, which is why I eat them often. Now that they’re out of the equation, I usually go for oats or whole grain cereal with a milk substitute. Or tofu scrambles. Or both. It’s really not a big deal that I can’t have eggs – at least not for 30 days. It’s a bigger deal that I can’t have any cake because of that – but you know, cake’s not that great for you anyways.

So then – milk products?

Yeah, those. Cheese in all its variations is the main reason I was convinced I could never, ever, ever eat vegan. I LOVE cheese. Cream cheese is a staple in my diet, and really delicious smelly cheese is one of my favourite indulgences. But again, that’s what I ate and it was easy and convenient. Now I get creative with what to put on my bread. Hummus has basically replaced cream cheese as my go-to spread. I may not like that I can’t have cheese, but I love that I get to discover what else there is. I mean – I just had no idea about all the things vegans CAN eat. I’ve already expanded my horizons a lot – plus, I now read labels, and that means I just will not be eating some things again – not even after the 30 days. Do you have any idea what’s in our food sometimes? Wow.
Also, milk itself: I never need that back. I definitely prefer almond milk or oat milk in my cereal – I never really liked the taste of milk. In my coffee, I just really don’t care. Soy is fine, I don’t taste a difference, and in chai latte, I actually much prefer soy milk. So that’s not something I miss. At all.

Well, what DO you eat?

More vegetables than I did before. More fruit. More oils, I think, but of course no fat from red meat or butter. A lot of whole grains, creative dips and spreads that often contain almond butter and soy yogurt, and, of course, quite a bit of tofu. But not just tofu and not all the time. So far, eating vegan is definitely making me be healthier. Almost all takeout food, pastries, chips, pretzels and other snacks contain at least some egg, lactic acid, buttermilk, powdered milk… you get the idea. (By the way, did you know the water in olive jars often contains some lactic acid?) Chocolate contains milk, unless it’s the really dark kind. The bag of chips my brother bought the other day had 2% buttermilk in it (?!). Gummy bears contain gelatine, which is… well… not made from plants. So what being vegan means is that I usually just say no to junk food. Mostly because I know there’s something in it that I’m not allowed to eat. Sometimes because have no idea what’s in it at all.

No matter how I feel about vegan food after the 30 days are over, there’s something I do know: I want to keep this way of looking at food – checking labels, being conscious about what I eat and when I eat, rather than absent-mindedly nibbling on salty pretzels (there’s egg in those, by the way). And until I get to decide, there are still 25 days of meat and dairy abstinence. I’ll keep you posted!

Kitchen Adventures: Throw Some Fruit in a Blender…

I haven’t forgotten that I promised you guys a strawberry recipe or three… yet somehow most of the strawberries I bought yesterday were gone by this morning, so this recipe only contains a handful (I say that still counts).

Either way, you can basically vary this smoothie however you want, and if the ingredients below look a bit randomly assembled to you, that’s because they were – I just took what leftovers I found in the kitchen.

The important thing for smoothies to remember is to mix ingredients in a way that will get the consistency right. You usually need a base of some kind. Here’s what I used:

  • ca. 100 ml low-fat milk
  • ca. 150 ml water – I’d have used milk instead of water for the whole thing, but, you guessed it, I ran out of milk. It turned out just fine so if you’re looking to save calories or something, water works. Juice is also an alternative, though not for calorie-savers 😉
  • ca. 90 g lemon sorbet (low-fat fruit-flavoured ice cream or frozen yogurt are good alternatives, just nothing too heavy/creamy)

Then, of course, you need some fruit to go with your base, because so far, your smoothie is going to have a bit of a lemony taste but not much else to it. I used the following:

  • 2 handfuls of melon, cubed, frozen (I used Galia, but I’m sure Honey Dew or Cantaloupe would also be delicious)
  • 1/2 large banana (leftover from my coffee-banana-smoothie)
  • ca. 10 small strawberries (I’d have used more if we’d had more!)

If you use these quantities, you’ll end up with about half a liter of smoothie, maybe even a bit more… You can vary the fruit as you wish, but to get the consistency right, it’s important that you add some frozen fruit – otherwise you’ll have to add in ice cubes instead of water or vary the amounts of sorbet and milk. Just experiment with it a bit, and enjoy!


PS: If you’ve read my previous kitchen adventures post on poaching eggs… I’d like to reiterate the statement that it takes practice. I screwed mine up completely this morning – I was too hungry, so I didn’t wait for the water to be the right temperature. You’d think I’d remember how crucial that is after writing an entire blog entry about it… apparently not! Well, it’s a learning curve.


Summer Strawberry Happiness


31°C and sunshine in Bavaria. I’m loving it.

Also, I might have just gone a bit crazy in the supermarket and bought a bit over a kilo of strawberries… and then I might have just eaten about a third of those in ten minutes…

Just saying, strawberries are the best thing about summer!

strawberries summer happiness

I should actually check out some strawberry recipes for you guys, now that I think about it. Stay tuned, I’m on it!

– J.

Kitchen Adventures: Summer Drinks

Okay, it is seriously HOT outside. Much too hot to be cooking, actually. I just made pasta – big mistake. The kitchen feels like a sauna now. What are you going to do in this heat except laze around all day and sip ice cold diet coke?

I’ll tell you. Put the coke down and try one of these summery drinks instead. All of them are healthier than diet coke, and way more delicious! Here are my top three summer favourites:

1. Water with Lemon, Mint & Cucumber

I’ve seldom had anything more refreshing. It’s super easy to make, too, you just have to plan ahead a bit, because it needs to refrigerate overnight for best taste. Here’s what you need:

  • half a lemon (or more, depends on your tastes), sliced
  • about 10-12 fresh mint leaves
  • ca. 1/2 small cucumber, sliced

Put all those ingredients in a tea pot and add 1 l of water. Use cold water! Boiling water makes the flavours absorb faster, true, but it supposedly also kills all the vitamin goodness in the lemon. Then put the pot in the fridge and leave overnight. In the morning, you will have a deliciously cold, absolutely refreshing drink that is apparently also a detox-wonder. Enjoy!
(P.S.: If you’re watching your waistline, you’ll be pleased to know that this drink basically has no calories. Like diet coke, but so much better for you!)

lemon mint cucumber water

2. Banana-Coffee-Smoothie

This one is perfect if you’re a coffee junkie like me, yet in this heat you’re not really up for your standard Americano or Latte in the afternoon. Here is my adaptation of a recipe I found on Pinterest some time ago:

  • 1/2 cup cold coffee (just make a bit more in the morning and then save some in the fridge until the afternoon!)
  • 1/2 cup milk (I use 1.5% fat because that’s what we usually have in the house, but full-fat or skim should work just as well)
  • 1 small-medium sized banana
  • 3-4 ice cubes
  • if you’d like the smoothie a bit sweeter and the coffee-taste less intense: 1-2 teaspoons of honey (sugar also works)

Just blend everything together, and if the consistency isn’t quite right, vary the number of ice cubes and the amount of milk a bit – it will depend on your banana, too 😉

3. Sparkling Water with Elderflower Syrup

This one might be a little tough to come by depending on your location. Where I’m from, elderberry juice and elderflower syrup are traditionally home-made, so this drink is actually something my grandmother would have traditionally prepared during summer time. If you can find elderflower syrup, this recipe is absolutely foolproof. You need two ingredients exactly:

  • elderflower syrup (if you’d like to try your hand at making it, Jamie Oliver has a recipe for it!)
  • sparkling water

Mix about 1 part syrup and 5-6 parts water – personally, I like my drinks a bit less sweet so I just use about two tablespoons in a big glass of water, but that’s really up to you. Enjoy!

What’s your favourite summer drink? I’m always on the hunt for new recipes to try!

Kitchen Adventures: Egg Poaching for Beginners (Like Myself)

I’m a really big fan of eggs for breakfast.

In the school cafeteria, for a while, they used to make fresh omelettes for breakfast, with whatever ingredients you picked. It was amazing, until they decided that it was too expensive for the catering company to do individualised omelettes and instead they baked large tubs full of egg-mix and made a sort of spongy egg pudding that was then called omelette.

I was sad, but then I was also about to graduate, and since I came home I’ve eaten eggs in every imaginable variation, except raw. I had boiled eggs, scrambled eggs, omelettes, eggs sunny side up… and poached. Yes, poached. And let me tell you, poaching an egg is intense, an adventure that gets your heart beating faster as anticipation rises before the crucial moment when you drop that egg into the water… will it work? Will the egg white form nicely around the yolk or just dissolve into a chaos of white stringy pieces?

All I knew about poached eggs was a vague memory of deliciousness from back when I was 16 and lived in California. There was a trip to some breakfast restaurant and I had something called “Eggs Benedict” – which, in case you didn’t know, is a deliciousness that consists of poached eggs on an English muffin, with bacon or ham and sauce hollandaise. I remembered not knowing what poached eggs were, and taking a chance on my order – needless to say I did not regret it. But trying to make my own poached eggs proved quite the challenge.

The secret, I realized, is not the vinegar. There are websites with recipes that swear you need vinegar in your poaching water, and those that say you can leave it out. After trying both versions, I’m inclined to say do what you like – it didn’t change the result much for me.

The secret is water temperature.

Basically, this is how you poach an egg:

  1. Crack the egg into a small dish (you can also crack it straight into the pot later but I find it easier this way).
  2. Fill a small pot with water (make it decently full, you want the water to be deep enough). Optional: Add a dash of vinegar to the water.
  3. Heat up the water. Here’s the crucial point: You don’t want it boiling, you want it simmering. Simmering means as close to boiling as possible without actually boiling. It’s that stage of the heating process when all the little bubbles that have been forming on the bottom of the pot start rising. The first time I tried, I was scared it would start to boil too quickly, so I ended up not heating it enough. If the water is too cold, your poached egg will be a mess – it won’t solidify fast enough and the egg whites will be all over the water and basically just look like little white strings, attached to the yolk if you’re lucky, but just as often floating freely.
  4. Stir the water to make like a mini-swirl in your pot. Drop the egg where the eye of the hurricane would be if your pot were the open ocean. If your water temperature is right, after an initial second of chaos, you will see something like this:Image
  5. If you’ve gotten this far, the hardest part is done. Turn down the heat and let the egg sit and boil for a few minutes. I’ve read 3-4 minutes as recommended, mine was done faster. It will depend on how fast your stove cools down, for example. You want your egg to be wobbly if you poke it carefully with a spoon, but not too soft. When it reaches your desired state of wobbliness, scoop it out with a big spoon. It took me about four attempts to create a poached egg that was pretty enough to be photographed, but I finally did it, so here you go… this is approximately what your result should look like (after seasoning and stabbing it with a fork to let the yolk come out a bit 😉 )
  6. Eat, enjoy, repeat… you’ll see, it’s much easier the second or third time around 🙂

PS: I feel very domestic posting recipes and kitchen stories on this blog. Don’t be fooled, I’m not nearly grown up yet… but I guess I’m on my way now!